New York state of mind

    i deleted most of my blogs this morning, feeling relieved. i think i should shake off my  past and start over again. sometimes i  want to give up, like today, coz there are so many nuances in life bounding you, making you feel harder and harder to move on. sometimes i want to go to another country where nobody knows me and live on my own. but how can i ? i will fall apart in solitude. but there are so many things here i want to forget, coz when i think of them in retrospect i would feel like a sheer moron. i dont like that.

    but there are still things that keep me going on. one living in a grand house may pride himself on all her lovely belongings, but the moment she hears the crackle of fire she decides very quickly which are the few she values most.