New York state of mind

Revolutionary Road 披露了中产阶级家庭的婚姻“真相”，压抑得让人恐惧。男女主角是电影Titanic里爱的死去活来生离死别的小情侣Leonardo 和 Kate. 不同的是他们这次演绎五十年前美国中产阶级的家庭生活。里面 April不搭调的粗眉，粗糙的皮肤，表情里的压抑，沧桑，恐惧让我战栗； Frank扭曲的脸部表情，痛苦的眼神让人揪心。他们对彼此失望，不断地互相伤害。她想改变，她厌恶他们的生活状态：It's unrealistic for a man with a fine mind to go on working year after year at a job he can't stand. Coming home to a place he can't stand, to a wife who's equally unable to stand the same things. And you know what the worst part of it is? Our whole existence here is based on this great premise that we're special. They we're superior to the whole thing. But we're not. We're just like everyone else! We bought into the same, ridiculous delusion. That we have to resign from life and settle down the moment we have children. And we've been punishing each other for it.

到巴黎生活是她落魄生活的唯一强心剂，这个强心剂让她光彩照人了一段时间。无奈这个梦未能实现。当她的巴黎梦破碎的时候，她说，So stupid. To put all your hopes in a promise that was never made…we were never special or destined for anything at all. 当生活变得七零八落，人会失去爱的能力…我特别记得April对Frank说的一句特绝望的话：I don’t love you any more…You were just some boy who made me laugh at a party once, and now I loathe the sight of you. 十年时间，沧海桑田。见证了洁尘曾经在评论Romy Schneider的一句话：老得太早了，她上了三十五岁后就像一夜间失水太多，一眼就让人看出枯意。中产阶级的生活扼杀了她青春时期美丽的梦想，已经彻底把一个风韵少女变成一枝枯柴。

我咬着牙把它看完。不是为了折磨自己，而是觉得这个六十年代一地鸡毛的中产阶级家庭生活故事与现今的家庭惊人的相似。工作之后果然很快就发现，钱真的不算什么。人的人生何其短暂，it should be all about having fun.我所指的having fun不是放浪，不是挥霍人生，这是不负责的态度；我指的是在一生中，至少要有一次是完全按照自己的意愿去完成自己想做的一件大事，并为之付诸努力，乐在其中。即使失败了，也算是不留遗憾。毕竟，我们都抵不过时间…